Current mood:

and really disappointed

while I'm still drunk-ish

That's why I can still type. yay.


Starting from Saturday.

Out with Kyna and Skippy. We're having a great time going to Byron Bay, just - JUST - after the taste of the pill (they would be so fucking awesome if they tasted good) has faded, Alana calls from my home phone.
Tells me to call when I get back. Now me being me, I'm all, 'yeah, sure'. Having been reminded of one of my most favorite people in the world I was singing her praises all the way back to Murwillumbah. When I get back all flying I have this thought; 'I'm going to be so hard to deal with when I come down'.
So I don't call. I mean I wanted to see her and Mel (who I hadn't seen/talked to in a long long time), but I wanted to spare them my coming down time.

Anyway long story short; because everyone is coming back, I'll post more in comment if you want to know the whole night.
They come around, I go with them instead of staying with Kyna, Skippy and by this stage my Dad.
I get water poured on me during my down (when I'm falling asleep) and I get really angry. Start yelling I'm going to beat the guys face in.
I calm down a bit. Tell Alana to keep him away from me, or I will beat his face in. She then tells me; QUOTE, "You can't do that, he's my brother {not blood related btw}, if you do that our friendship is over"

I was shocked, REALLY hurt, and REALLY REALLY angry. So I left. Told Mel I didn't want to hear from Alana for the next week.


Tonight.

Tuesday. Having a few with some other friends. I decide to try and make up. So I tell Kim to call Alana and tell her I want to explain.

Alana says on no uncertain terms (we tried a few times), no. She's had a shit day and doesn't want to talk to me.

More - including the part where I was a dick and maybe deserved getting water poured on me when I A. Have more time and B. Am more coherent.

I would just like to say that I'm not angry, just really, really hurt. I wouldn't do that to her no matter how shit a day I had been having or how angry I was at her - so why do it to me?